Confessions of *Failure and Success

I am a coffee sales rep

Every time One Village Coffee the company I represent has a hard month selling coffee I get down. I ask questions like, can I do it?

You see in the past three months I have accepted the role of the sales manager and primary sales rep for OVC. For the longest time I have fought the feeling of the role I am playing in this venture. It has taken many conversations and people like David to help me see who I need to be.

Why is it so hard?

I have a very large ego. I want to be famous. I want to seem important. I want to feel good about myself.

The only way I feel good about myself as a sales rep is when someone buys coffee. Wow, that sounds tright. But it is true and I want to be honest, because I want to be successful. Meaning, I want to do the best i can do, in the time I have been given. I want OVC to be sustainable and I want the organizations overlooked to have a marketable tool in coffee. I want to connect the consumer to the story of the overlooked people of origin. Most of all i want to be apart of something bigger than me. I want to be apart of what God is doing in this World. I want to be apart of reconciliation, justice, mercy and grace.

Ok, now that I have made more meaning out of what I am apart of, I can sleep and be ok with the fact that tomorrow I will drive to places I have never been in towns I do not know and ask people in coffee shops and stores if they will sample my coffee and listen to the story of OVC. A group of people who started a company around the premise of helping people.

When I wake up and get in my car armed with samples and sales brochures I make it possible for growth, with out me doing this simple job there is little possibility. I accept my job. I accept who I am and I accept the responsibility offered to me.

Who are you?