This Sunday Andrea and I will have been married for six years. I have known her for eleven years and I enjoy reflecting on our experiences.
Most of all I enjoy the fact that she accepts me in my raw imperfection and transparency. There is so much to her that goes unnoticed. I need to start recognizing the positive in her. I think that will be my theme for this next year.
Recognize the positive.
I guess i should start now:
Today we were working out, oh yeah I forgot to mention, we are doing this 90 day work out. When we complete this program it will be the most disciplined thing I have done since Volleyball in High School. This work out is effective. It has been a philosophical shift for me on how I view my body.
I treat myself as though this being was created in a day and can change in a day. Here is the thing, it took nine months and then it took another fifteen to twenty to develop. So much of my philosophy in life has been to accomplish.
Accomplish driven:
Focussed on achieving a goal. This work out is perfect I have a goal. My goal is to complete the 90 days. That is all I think about. I eat right, so that I have energy to complete the work out. I treat my body differently because it has become a tool in the completion of a goal.
Here is the difference. I do not have a goal of how much weight to loose or what i should look like. I just believe that at the end of 90 days I will be different. And I have accepted that I do not know how to change my physical habits but i need someone to help.
Andrea is a huge reason why I will finish my 90 days. It is time to work with her on accomplishing other tasks at hand. I think that is why it is so hard for us as a couple, sometimes. We are both goal oriented and want to accomplish things even at the risk of each others feelings.
When my goals are broad like, “be married”, I often forget the important things like, listen, do the laundry, clean up, turn off the lights, etc.
I would like to be more aware of her needs and more present… Writting helps.
